I'm not exactly sure what happened here. I mean I know i was supposed to be writing everyday, but I just couldn't handle it. Now it's almost September and I'm going to try and play catch up.
So what's new? Well I didn't finish that diet I started in January, but I did make some progress with it, so it was not a total waste of energy. I lost almost 20 pounds, and the loss is visible and comfortable, but I want to lose more. I'm thinking somewhere between 10-15 pounds because why not. Dieting was definitely a struggle.I struggled with overeating, under eating, and overexercising. I got really self conscious when I started losing weight because my clothes didn't fit, but I also didn't feel like I was losing enough weight at the rate I wanted to go. However I was able to stay on track from march to June to lose the weight. After I left school I got a job at a deli and I stopped working out as much, and I started eating so much. At the end of the summer I had probably gained about 5 of the pounds back. I think it was easier to diet at school because I was broke all the time, and the food in our commons gets gross after the first 2 weeks of school. When I got home I couldn't stop eating, and all of my favorite restaurants were just calling my name; It was a true test, and I failed.
It's ok though, because I had a fantastic summer full of great experiences, employment, and memories. I got to take my friends out to their first club experiences and hookah bar experiences. I worked at the wonderfully expensive whole foods. I also had a very brief stint at target that was an absolute waste of my time. I started running/walking the marina near my house, and it was the most mind clearing experience that I allowed myself to have. You're able to get away, feel the wind on your face, watch the waves, and smile at the sun. If you don't allot yourself some me-time away from others and technology and just be in nature (or man made nature like your backyard) you will go insane.
I'm back at school now going into my fourth week as a sophomore! I've decided to start getting more involved on campus because I feel more acquainted and more comfortable than I felt last year. There's a new vibe on campus that i'm feeling. I auditioned for a play last semester and was called back for 2 roles, and I secured an additional role last week. I'm excited to be performing nickle and dimed! I am even more excited that the author of the book that the play is based off of, Barbara Eherenreich is coming to our school before opening weekend to talk to us about it. however I'm also very stressed because it will be my first play, and the only acting experience I have is acting like I'm interested. I guess we'll see what comes of this.
I'm also in Hip hop club this year, and so far it has been a lot of fun! The board comes up with the choreography and they teach it to us for an hour a week. I hope that we can have some freestyle days or just chill days where we aren't learning choreo though. Before I came to this school I participated in a summer program for first generation, low income, and students of color that helps get us acquainted with campus life, and that provides new students with a mentor to help make the transition a smooth one. Well now i'm going to be a mentor for that program, and I'm so excited to help a new students. I kind of hope they pair me with someone who is shy, so I can help them get involved in things, and because I'm shy too. I've also decided to join a wonderful Women's organization on campus that devotes their time to community service involving social justice, and women's issues. They do things like volunteer at women's shelters, Teach youth in juvenile detention centers, and promote awareness to different issues that our campus may not be aware of.
And that is what I've been up to since I last wrote in less detail. Maybe I'll come back to this, maybe I won't. It's hard knowing that people don't actually read this.
